Although my marks and feedback so far are fine in class, I feel quite overwhelmed and am fighting an instinct to flee**. Some of this is the tired, but that can't be eliminated from the situation. I may be de jure qualified to take the course (I think) but I'm quickly remembering how much I suck at college. Having a bunch of new terms and new definitions hurled at me last week which aren't making any deep impression is not making me feel any better and the amount of work to be done is daunting. The exam questions are available and we are encouraged to practice answering them and critique each others' answers! As fond as I am of this seemingly novel idea ... it just means I'm reading over several different phrasings of the exact same answers, and should probably write my own. And of course there is a group project, a report. The course content is certainly interesting and I think I'll learn (have learned) from the lecture videos and reading assignments. I'm much less certain about how much I'll be able to complete. This is not quite my first graduate level course, but I didn't do at well in that one, nor have I been in school in a few years. I'm afraid this course is not the best way for me to wade back in. To further abuse that device, it's more like being thrown into a pool and becoming afraid of the water (again)***.
** The last time this happened was not coincidentially the last time I was enrolled in a college class. It went poorly somewhere in the middle and only through the efforts of sotto_voce and the professor did I stay in the stupid class, which was not worth the time, money, or tears****.
*** Possibly non-fiction. Officially water and I have detente, a mutual non-aggression pact.
**** Mine, non-fiction. The professor's tears would have been for his sick wife.