I logged off of EVE quite upset one night some weeks ago after I had to back out of a mission that I couldn't do in my ship (too big). This was not advertised in the mission and failing the mission cost me credit with the corp I have been doing the same stupid missions for my entire time in system. It set me back about 10 crap missions, and it wasn't my fault, just a game design glitch / misfeature, one unique to EVE, I think.
Since then I had not logged on until tonight, not having felt any draw to it at all. And after hanging out in chat for a couple hours with most everyone I know in-game ... nothing has changed. I had a brief chat with my corp leader and she was friendly and encouraging, but not really helpful. She offered support in whatever I wanted to try and do, which was sweet of her, but didn't suggest anything for me to do. So, I cashed out the few things I had managed to create (sold 1500 RP worth of MechE Cores) and then dumped my cash reserves into the corp's main account (250 M Iskies). I don't think she'd noticed that when I logged off, so I hope it will be a pleasant surprise. :D The transaction memo field is "ennui".
I have enough jobs out here, and some of them even pay. I met a few cool people there who I wouldn't mind running into in some other 'verse, but ... Grind is dumb and grind without achieving anything is really dumb. Linearity and being on a rail is dumb .. but not having goals or a path is pointless. The "fun" part is supposed to be playing with other people, but I didn't see much of that in this game, any more than in the others I've tried. Don't worry game designers, it's almost certainly me.
Maybe I swing back by Hello Kitty Mystery Island some night this week and check up on folks there.
