I realise of course that it only seems like I am bottoming out, that months and weeks of drenn are taking advantage of my weakness this week to harass me, that things are actually pretty good right now ...

But really, I do not want to be extensively contemplating my mistakes, plotting my lack of a course, puzzling out what to do this year, and next... or figuring out how least bad to deal with some other folks' decisions of late.

Really, more sleep would be much better.

I just don't want to be crazy sick and/or alone, not xor and and much much less and.

Making some soup, getting more cough drops.